i'm so so so stressed about this new school term.
so so so many projects to handle.
so so so many things have not been spoken.
so so so out-of-touched with everyone.
i'm so afraid.

there's nothing for me to do, even if i think very hard and ask everyone.

don do = remain in the current situation
do = risk, not advisable.

as i'm bothering myself with this school reopening issue, my house god have been very nice and gave me an answer.
: i had a dreamt and a lot number appeared, so my mum checked the "divine" book for me and the answer is so real and matching to what i've been thinking. the only thing that i can do now is

忍!

i'll have to endure, if the situation says so.

hmmmm.. i think it's not hard to keep quiet. i'll be a good student and group member with my ears and not mouth. =)

smile kelly. keep smiling!


oh, and another to talk about; thanks everyone!!!!

Thank you guys for having the thoughts of coming down to the funeral. Sorry if i didn't reply you all cause i feel that i'm only a grandchildren and that the area is limited. Let my uncles and auntys friends sits around better bah. but really appreciates all your thoughts. =)

Thanks guys, for the effort to drag me out of the house. i know i've been rejecting dates and meet-ups, but thanks for the effort. i came out eventually right? All thanks to your encouragements!!! i'm so touched when i hear you guys over the other side of the phone trying very hard to 'pyscho' me out. and when my mood is not there and you all understands, i really feel like hugging everyone of you for being so nice to me. cause i know, some wont ask you out again when you have reject them once. so, thanks so much ppl.!!

hearts you all so so so much and i'll be that old me again, soon. =)

(sometimes if i'm red with tears, it's because i think of him again. so, i appreciate and hopes you all wont hug me or touch me first, cause i don wish to cry in public. =) )