hi..

chalet booked.. but is not my dream type.. Zzz
the bigger the hope, the harder the fall..

hmmm.. gonna be happy..
must try to be..

no matter what, i still got a chalet for my 21st..
i must be happy..
my family is paying for me..
though it's not what i want.. ZZZ

this phrase " it's not what i want", keeps appearing in my mind..
this is bad, so bad..
i need a change in attitude..
ahhhhh...
but i cant..

i keep thinking if only she don interfere so much, den i'll be holding a big chalet for my birthday.. ZZZZ

now, it's so small and dark...

ahhh...

i need to stop!!!

im like fighting among myself..
a bad and a good me..

ok ok..
i should be a good girl..

don blame anyone..

now, the real fact is, ive got that (pathetic, oops) chalet, i need to be happy and excited and start thinking of the decoration, catering, cakes etc... and not whining over split milk..

no more complain..

or maybe..

one last time bah..

IT'S NOT WHAT I WANT!!!

WHY?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!

ALL your FAULT!!!

hmph.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh..

feel so much better now..

ok.. back to reality SOON..
hard to promise i wont grumble, when i saw others have big and grant birthday celebration..
*SCREAM!!*